Todae wasn't a gd day..im sick!!!!!!!Yesterday both mie n sweetheart fell sick..hais..wad to do..we r twins(: the feelin sucks..sore throat, flu, headache..gotta blame it on myself though..already felt unwell on sun..but hack care..den yesterday walk in the rain back home..hahas..didn't brin umbrella:P Gt into a quarrel with parents in the nite plus had some personal upsettin stuff..so...sort of shed tears the whole nite..yea..hahas..Wasn't any better in the mornin..in fact kinda worse..saw nicole mummy n sweetheart first thin in the mornin..saw them n almost cried again..but sweetheart wun let mie..told her everythin..sweetheart n mummy listened den comforted mie..ty mummy n sweetheart(:was damn tired n lethargic in the lessons..hardly ever paid attention..mornin the sci test...the min i finished..didn't even bother to check jus lie on the table n sleep..sleep thru chi lesson until recess..of course with some interuptions..u noe those chers n their "sit upright" phrase..but these chers(mdm yeo n miss tay) were ok..they said their phrases 1/2 times den they jus let u b..they close one eye de(: ty fer tat chers..den went fer recess..ate eith angeline sis n xingan jie..dunwan eat de..but xingan jie wan mie eat..n there she was naggin..until finally i gave way to her..den CME..mdm yeo was such a dear(: she let us rest meanin really sleep fer one period..den she teach sci fer the other 1 period..i tink...wasn't even listenin..slept thru both periods..without interuptions tis time..waa so comfortable(: den gt A BIG COMFORTABLE HUG frm my beloved angeline sis!!!!Ty fer the hug angeline sis..love u so much!!!!!!! Ur hug was reallie damn comfortable...sort of felt revived frm the dead.hahas..but serious(: Love u!!!!!! Den went down with Honey to help collect the badminton tee..was reallie nice..den slacked alot in DNT..no lessons..slept bside sweetheart..hu was also sleepin..hais..den bused home with sweetheart,nicole mummy n angeline sis(:

I trusted u n i still do..

no matter wad ur decision is..

Unable to forget n still lykin someone r 2 different things..

do u noe?

Unable to forget bcuz tat someone is a special someone

whom u liked very much..

U'll nvr b able to forget tat someone bcuz tat somone is

irreplaceable..

REALLIE REALLIE special

No matter tat someone made u cry,laf,hurt or happy

u'll nvr b able to forget them bcuz they were once someone so impt

to u..n up to tis very day still is..

u cant forget them...

U lyk someone bcuz tat someone is another

really special person

U n the person shared many happy times together..

u feel really great happy n many undescrible feelins

wen with tat someone..

U enjoy urself with the person

U care n tink of the person more den ur normal frens

really special feelin u feel to the person...

Can u lyk someone n still b able to forget another..

i duno..

certain things r not tat easy to b let go..

U jus cant..not in the past

not for now..

n not fer later..

U jus cant..

they'll always remain in ur heart..

carin for them on the side lines..

Nvr bein able to forget them..

U can try ur whole life time..

u jus cant..i can't...

"Boy..im sorry i keep pushin u to her..i noe u dun lyk it..actuali i dun feel gd either..but i dun wan u to keep waitin on fer mie..i noe u r not pressurisin mie..but i duno how long i'll take to forget him..i dun even tink i can forget him..i no longer lyk him..but i jus cant forget him..i duno y either...everytime i try to make a decision..the results r still the same..i close my eyes i c u..i open my eyes i c him..he's the first person i like..i cant forget him..even though i dun like him already..tats y i dun wan u to keep waitin on..waitin is a painful job..i like u tats y i dun wan u to wait..to hurt...i cant forget him..he's still kept at the small corner in my heart..tats the best i can do..while u store the rest.. mayb..u shodn't wait anymore..its unfair if i carry on lyk tis..i shodn't drag u along into the pool of hurt..1 person hurt is enuff..mayb i shod jus keep u in my heart too..i dunwan u to get hurt.."

Todae rainin damn heavy..was lyk all drenched..reached sku at 7.35..wasn't late..lucky barhx..hahas..lucky gal marhx(:den went fer pe..play captain ball fer awhile den go comp lab do the game..hais..so fast jiu die lerx in the game..damn lan:P hahas...den recessed with angeline sis,darhlin n sweetheart..cum back frm recess..mr tang class.our class was rather restless..jus kept on tokin..nobody was listenin..even those guai de lehx..so he stopped teachin n lat us tok..first time lehx..so it was lyk almost 2 whole period free..hahas..den bused home with nicole mummy n sweetheart..sorry darius kor n alex ar yi..i cant go out with u tmr worrs..nx time kayys(:

2E5 ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday was lyk damn fun larrhx!!!!!!!!! [WARNIN, tis post is lyk gonna b DAMN LONG LARX] hahas..went botanic garden yesterday after sku..field trip thin..sit with xin yi sweetie-pie,behind as is my beloved angeline sis n darhlin along with the boys in the surroundin(:wen reached, we tok n laf all the way the journey..took pics with angeline sis,sweetie pie n darhlin..the boys were lyk jokin n makin us laf all the way..Damn funny larx... Den 2e5 sat at the pond there..admire the scenery, afew handful do data loggin..while all the boys took out the flour they bought n throw at taufiq gan kor..Its his b'dae todae!!! HAPPY B"DAE TAUFIQ GAN KOR!!!!!(: All the boys all started takin flour throw at gan kor n each other..den mie,sweetie-pie,darhlin,angeline sis n nicole mummy also join them plaay..ended up throwin at each other(: but more of gan kor larhx..b'dae boy marhx..hahas..his whole hair n face was lyk all white!!!!!!!!! we're all ganna..actuali i nvr ganna de lorrhx..but bcuz..i was lyk most clean so everybody came runnin after mie..i was lyk runnin fer mi life larhx!!!!!!!in the end also kena by cheng yao kor!! WAH!!! all my hair,face,badminton jersay n rebork shorts were lyk covered with flour!!! hahas,,den we'all the group of ppl playin flour take photo..took a few shots(: Den do toilet tidy up den board bus lerx..in bus help louis gan lao gong tidy up his hair..his hair FULL OF FLOUR SIA!!!!!!!!!!! wen drop out tat time LYK SNOWIN!!!! help him dust in the whole bus journey..sweetie pie also help(: Den Darius kor i tink "bathe" his whole hair...tink his whole hair kena flour(: actuali at botanic garden there he nvr kena..cus mie n him were lyk runnin away..DUNWAN TO BE FLOURED!! but in the end also kena until he washed his whole hair..DAMN FUN SIA!! TY MY BELOVED ANGELINE SIS,DARHLIN,SWEETIE PIE N THE GUYS FER THE FUN AT THE BOTANIC GARDEN!!! LOVE U ALL SOOOOO MUCH!!!!!! Den reached sku take class photo!!!! hahas..den go bb court with alex ar yi,edmund kor,cheny yao kor,taufiq gan kor,louis gan lao gong,edward tai gong,shawn ah gong,shi jie zi er n darius kor along with yj nu er n sweetie pie..we're girls watch the boys play..2e2 v 2e5..kai jie,jon,yan heng,zhongxuan,ivan were still in sku so they play match..waaa..some of the shots lyk so damn nice sia!!!!!!!!!!!!! The rest shawn ah gong,edward tai gond,shi jie zi er n taufiq gan kor were playin among themselves bb at the corner...i went to join them..play with them damn funny!!! but dangerous kena hit on the head by the ball thrown by shi jie!!! hahas..den laterthe boys n kai jie mimick others the way they draw ball..they damn gao xiao lorrhx!!! hahas reallie had fun with them.. den bused him with cheng yao kor,edmund kor,alex ar yi,taufiq gan kor,shi jie zier,louis gan lao gong n sweetie pie..in the bus damn gao siao lorrhx they!!! Hahas..TY GUYS FER THE FUN N LAUGHTER!!!!!!! ALL THE BOYS N MY BELOVED ANGELINE SIS,DARHLIN N SWEETIE PIE!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE U ALL,LOVE 2E5,U ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2E5 ROCK ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday nite i was told my gan ma was admitted in hospital...i heard tat she was sick n hospitalised..mummy n mie were goin 2 visit her..den mummy recieved a call..tears welled up in her eyes wen she hang up..somethin gripped mi heart wen i asked her wad was it..she told mie..gan ma passed away..i stared at her fer a short while..i couldn't take it..its not true..i laf at her..n told her she was lyin..gan ma was my guardian since 3 to 5 wen my mum had to accompany my dad fer an overseas trip..i was stayin with gan ma..she slowly said tat she was really....i couldn't hear anymore..i ran to my rm..n hugged my pillow sobbin..she;s still in the hospital..i noe it..i refused to believe mum..I sobbed my eyes out till dinner...told darhlin bout it at nite..we toked bout almost everythin tats buggin mie..one by one all my love wans has gone....i jus miss the feelin of bein cared n loved..i reallie miss tat feelin..everybody hav their own family hu loved them..y cant i have the same..wad do i hav..a nearly broken family-a mother hu sees only her son as her only child..n a dad which can leave us anytime..my only comfort r my frens in sku..early tis mornin i went to sku without a word..wen i reached sku..saw darhlin..the min i saw her..it brought comfort 2 mi heart..den angeline sis n gan mei came..we toked n laf in the parade square..especially angeline sis..she's so damn cute n funny..always make us laf..i love all of them so much(:den go home lerx..do work fer awhile..den realised mum was at home..she was goin to go to gan ma de......... she asked quietly if i wanted to go..i realised tat theres no point lyin to myself..its the last time im gonna c her......wen i came home..i cried in my rm again..tat was the last time i saw her..i cried n cried..makin up fer the tears tat i hadn't waste in sku..i cant believe jus wad a great pretender i was in sku..hidin my tears behind tat smile of mine..i jus miss her so much now...

Sometimes i dun understand love..y mus love break almost every heart..if tats the case i'll rather not believe in it again..but i still belive it exist..its out there somewhere..but im afraid..i cant take anymore hurt n pain..seein all those around mie hurt by love too..im even more afraid..i duno if i shod trust love again..love hurts too much..sometimes it hurts too much tat pain bcomes phobiatic..learnin how to hide those tears behind tat smile..learnin to say it doesn't hurt wen it still does..learnin to sae dun love wen u still do..doin all tis..sufferin in silence.. jus to avoid more hurt..afraid tat the pain will repeat..

Yesterday de trainin in sku..ok larhx trainin..but i reallie reallie hate the 200m runs!!!!!!! 5 rounds...tat wan can die..almost canot breathe..but hahas..found it real thrillin(:den 100m run..10 times 2 sets i tink..not sure..tat wan was ok..den bout 5 lyk tat jiu released lerx..i was lyk lafin lyk siao wen we were released lorrhx..my tat junior..she damn cute lorrhx..keep on lafin..every thin also laf..we all named her the xiao fuo..she kept lafin until the rest also all started lafin..she damn cute de..hahas..den after trainin..at canteen kana tease by all most all my juniors plus ting fang they all bout clarrence..they teasin mie but clarrence de face is the wan which go red..we all laf until lyk siao lyk tat lorrhx..den later sit with darhlin,clement n yixian..i teasin clement n darhlin fer fun larhx..den tat yixian damn funny..say dunwan b their goosebum..suppose 2 b gooseberry..darhlin,mie n clement kept on lafin..until whole canteen can hear..they stop liao i still canot stop..reallie damn funny..i go tell nicole mummy they all even yj de mr boyfren..i jus kept on lafin..they say i todae damn hyper..also duno wad happen to mie..seems lyk i caught the disease of my junior...den wait fer ncc released..den bused home with the both of them..den he damn bad lorrhx..keep teasin bout mie n tat "him"..by the time i came down the bus..the "he" go lerx..i was lyk gonna cry lerx lorrhx..i also duno y,i dun lyk "him" tat much anymore n its not he make mie cry..its jus...i duno..i kept quiet..the bus was lyk so damn long..he pei mie wait fer bus..finally..the bus sooooooo long den cum..board lerx bus..tears jus start flowin out..i reallie duno y..reallie..reached home..darhlin corr mie..told her wad happen..she understand..i love u so much darhlin..ty fer listenin to mie crap over the fone,u r jus simply the best(:..den he corr mie..apologise again..told him not his fault..ty fer pei mie wait bus,somemore so late lerx, n its not ur fault kayys(:

Ok..my blog's rottin..hahas..anyway jus showered..so refreshin..nid to start work soon..so cant type long kayys..so my week was ok barhx..mon went out with gan mei n jie 2 hougang mall study(: hahas..actuali..more of playin barhx..hahas..but gt get some work done larhx(: wed..no track..stay back wait fer gan mei go home together,she gt CO(; but she nvr..naughter girl:P hahas..but once in a while skip ok larhx..hahas..i would hav done the same thing myself..hahas..cant blame mie..she's mi twin sis,suppose to b alike:P!!!! hahas..den we stay back at the bb court cus gan mei scared kana caught(: the boys play bb the whole afternoon while gan mei teach mie how play di zi..veri diff!!! but managed to play wan song kayys!!! Gan mei gd teacher(: Den adeline n gan mei de junior cum down cus CO finish..den we play captains ball usin the net as goal..but gan mei dun wan play so mie n adeline versus her 4 junior..waa ..play fer awhile jiu tired lyk duno wad lerx.. mus b no stamina lerx cus adeline's still not tired!!! but no way..not gonna gif up..nvm continue playing..but wah..reallie damn tired lerx..walk bit step..pant lyk siao..but nope tats not gonna stop mie..hahas..too bad tats mie..so stubborn..i noe(: den jiu bused home with gan mei,shi jie,edmund kor n adeline(: ty yan heng stay back(: den todae..canot stay until so long so canot wait fer gan mei..sorwie gan mei..watch e2,n6 n e5 play bb with gan mei fer awhile..den er zi spit "holy water" on gan mei n mie!!!!!!!! Waa!!!!!! they were all behind mie.. Er zi took bryan de waterbottle drink...but tink he didn't noe..tot it was someoneelse de..den jon shout n told him was bryan de..along was watchin match n half listenin(cus they tokin reallie loud:P), den all of a sudden..the nx thing i noe was my whole back was covered with holy water!!! gan mei also kana a bit..ER ZI!!!!!!!!! Agrraah!!!! cus wen jon told him it was bryan de..erzi duno wad happen,suddenly wan laf den spit out all the water he drink!!!!! DAMIEN,u damn lucky u my er zi..if not..i'll b lyk so damn mad at u..kay larhx but i noe is accident,wun blame u de kayys(: but pls horrx..no nx time(:hahas..den gan mei go fer CO..den watch the boys playy bb..e2 n e5 they arhx..reallie damn funny gt kai jie,zheng cao,jon,kenrick,damien n some more others..but all tis are the wans whom sort of entertained mie there,they reallie very funny..hahas..den tat jon arhx..keep bullyin mie..i noe i short ok!!!!no nid to rub it in kayys(: den bused home with yan heng,shi jie n edmung kor(: ty yan heng pei mie!!! ok..tats veri long..gotta go lerx n corr darhlin..later she scold mie(:

Ellos..so long nvr post lerx!!! Ppl bugging mie to post(: hahas..oh n thnx to the ppl whom wish mie to get well soon..mr flu's gone!! Thnx!!(: Haiyo sept holiday goin end soon..haven finish hw..mus chiong lerx..mon..went out with honey,jie,alex nu xu n taufiq gan kor..went to plaza sing shop shop fer awhile den go lerx..sorry to all 4 of them fer waitin sooooooooo long fer mie!!!!:P den went bugis shop shop with jie..love goin out with jie!!!! Had fun!! jie nx time mus go out again kayys!!!!!!!!!! Den tues went gt maths xtra class.was late!!!den nvr brin maths txbk!!! Hais so forgetful:P.. den wed went JB with mum n dad..shop the whole day..bout 10plus at nite den reach home..Thurs..slept till bout 11plus den wake up..tired:P..den afternoon gt tuition den do hw..ok larhx..gotta go lerx n rush on hw!!! LOve u darhlin!!!♥-dun sae i nvr put ur name in my blog horr(: Oh n big ty fer the helps on the tagboard ppl(: hahas..cya..